I need a drink.

I'm sitting on my ass watching the Carolina / Duke basketball game right now. It's reminding me of when I was a student at UNC. College feels like it was so long ago. It took me five years to finish my degree in economics...good thing I stuck it out...it sure comes in handy when I'm surfing http://www.perezhilton.com/ every morning at work (insert sarcasm here). Although, my time in college is what lead me to a life in California so I guess it wasn't all bad. My problem was that I couldn't stay focused. I had just finished 13 years of school...I had graduated from high school with a 4.75 GPA and a Salutatorian title to go along with it. I got straight A's most of my way through school and by the time college rolled around, I just didn't feel like doing any more homework, projects, papers or presentations. But it was important to my family so I went through the motions...

Anyways, I'm 27 now and I'm hoping someday I'll understand why I wrote a 30 page analysis about hyperinflation in Zimbabwe.

If you've read the other posts I've put on here then you may remember when I was telling you about my dad's idea for me to move home and start a business with him...a coffee shop, to be more specific. Well now he's changed his mind and he's thinking that a Chic-fil-a would be more profitable. He's probably right, but the thought of quitting my exciting radio job to go home and run a fast food restaurant...hmmmm...I don't know about that. I'm still in the pro's vs. con's stage of the decision making process. The question I keep coming back to is: at what point do my long-term goals of financial stability and family involvement begin to outweigh the "fun" of being on the radio? And if it's already begun, when do I walk away from my life here to pursue the other things I aspire to have in my life? I'm not going to lie...I want to make money. I want to make real money. Radio is NOT the path to financial wealth. It is only lucrative for a select few...a common misconception among those who think we get paid a lot. We don't; especially now that the radio game has changed and talent is regarded as less and less important. The music is the star of any radio station...the people who talk are becoming more and more useless. In fact, I'm not convinced that someday there might not even be DJ's on radio stations. Everywhere I look there's more syndication, voice-tracking and out of market programming.

I've been making myself crazy over this decision.

Oh and to top it off, I just found that I've been scheduled to work an air shift on Saturday from 2 until 6 - Valentine's Day - yay. I hope this doesn't come-off sounding completely arrogant and ego-maniacal (is that even a word?) but I do mornings AND middays Monday through Friday. I'm on the air from 5:30 in the morning until 2:00 in the afternoon...and I don't get paid a dime for doing my 10-2 midday show. I didn't even get a bonus for having the #1 rated midday show in all of Sacramento. If you listen to almost any other radio station in the country, you'll hear a morning show...and then you'll hear an entirely different person doing the 10-2 shift...and guess what...that midday person gets paid a full-time salary! So I'm already getting ass raped by the company I work for by doing two FULL TIME air shifts for one measly salary, not to mention - I do all of the morning show's website postings and book us interviews...like Katy Perry...which I got yelled at for because after I was given permission to book the in-studio my boss forgot he told me I could have her come in and then decided I should not have been talking to Katy's record rep about what time she'd be coming in. Does that make any sense to you? Yeah, me neither. So excuse my lack of "team" attitude for not wanting to come in on Saturday...Valentine's Day...to work while all of the other full-timers have the day off.

I'm bitching and whining...I know...but I can't help it. It's easy to say, "Oh you're lucky to have such a cool job. You get to meet celebrities and go to concerts." And everyone who says/thinks that is correct...but nothing is perfect.

I can feel my blood pressure going up as I'm typing this so it might be time to call it a night. I need a drink.